Like I've said in recent weeks, I'm have been on big ball of anxious but I'm finding my way through it at the moment and I'm slowly coming out the other side.
I've been coping by doing a few things.
I've been writing to do lists and actually crossing things off them, I've been reading a few mum related books, I've been spending time talking to the kids about the next few months and I've been going to bed as soon as I feel tired, even if it is only 7:30pm...
One such book that I've been reading is The Happiest Mom by Meagan Francis. I've had it in my bookcase for a while and I flick through it occasionally reading the snippets that I need to at any given time.
And you know what? It's been helping, I don't want to spend my impending days with a newborn thinking the mantra 'this too shall pass'. I want to savour the moments with a newborn, because they may just be our last.
Yes, I am going to be tired and yes the house isn't always going to be clean. But we will be a family of 6 and that's just what we wanted.
One of the chapters of the book is called 'Aim Low and Go Slow'. And well, that sounds a good enough mantra for me for the next 3/4 months.
The kids will be loved, fed and wearing clean clothes. But those clothes might not have come from their wardrobes, but instead probably the clean washing pile. They might get breakfast for dinner occasionally, but that's cool too.
So whilst, I can't say that I'm not completely freaking out about how I am going to manage it all. I am looking forward to being a mama to 4 very very much.